confused

Hello

Ever believed in love at First side? I always thought that that wasn’t possible how can fall in love when you know the person. I always thought that it was than just lust nothing more and nothing less. Until this weekend. I ‘m afraid to write it “out loud” so I want to ask if you guys don’t want to comment on this one here below. Because I just want to tell the story so maybe I can understand it better. This weekend I met a guy and he was really good looking. I was just blown away I got it extremely hot and when he talked to I stuttered at least that was how I felt. It felt as if I was melting right there on the dance floor. It is so stupid I can’t really explain. We had a after party at my place and it just felt so right as if I knew him way longer than just a few hours. We talked and of course kissed. After he left we texted a lot.

It is now a day ago that al of this happened. And I can’t say I’m in love but I can’t stop thinking about him and about what happened. I still don’t believe in love at first sight so no I’m not in love. But I don’t know how I feel about it after all, don’t know what to do. He is hot and cute and sexy and really sweet and a talker what you not find often in guy. But somehow he is not the type of guy I normally fall for. He is kind of a computer nerd but he had also friend who don’t match with that. O and he is a friend of a friend of mine and that will not work out ok I’m afraid. But now I’m making excuses and I know it. I just don’t know what to do any more. I’m scared and confused and I think I will need your help so forget what I said before and let me know what you think I should do about al of this. So please do comment .

The writing helped a little bit but the only thing I’m sure of right now is that it wasn’t just a fun night out.

 

Talk to you soon

XoXo

sanii

 

 

 

realizing

Helloo!

You only miss it when it’s gone. That’s a phrase that people say and I think it’s partly true.

I’m home alone for a hole week. That’s not for the first time, well the week part is. But the real different is that my parents and brother and sister are on vacation. Of course I’m jealous because I’m not with them but I also already miss them. This is partly the fault of my mom. She went crying yesterday because I was becoming a big girl. Ok that sounds really stupid!

But never the less they went 30 min ago and I’m already missing them. Don’t know how to survive the hole week. It’s really quit around here I think that can work as well but still I miss them.

I just realize how much my family means to me how much I love them (and hopefully they love me back ).

Sometimes there are just little things that make you realize how much a person or certain people means to you and how important they are. For me it’s especially my mom she means a hell of lot to me. And I really don’t know what I would do with out her. And something as small as they going on vacation made me realize how much she means to me, and actually how much I need her in my live.

My mom is a special person,. My relationship with my mom is like the relationship between Rory and loralie from Gilmore girls only my mom is a little bit more mature than loralie . If you don’t know the series I will explain. I tell my mom everything she is my mom and my best friend and the same time.

Ok it looks like I’m making a mothers day card or something. The reason that I wrote was because I wanted to tell about missing and realizing that. And instead I’m bragging about my mom. It’s so stupid that you mostly know what you missing when it’s gone. Because than you know also that you toke the person for granted. I think we do that way to often. We need to learn to stand still ones in a while and look at what we have around us. Appreciate the people who are always be there for us and always will. And we need to let them know I much they mean to us. I think way to few of us are realizing how much our parents mean to us or our friends for that matter. My friends helped me trough some rough time. And I never really thank them for it. I think they not even now how much they helped. And that’s something I regret that I never thanked them for it. But it’s never to late. Rather late than never right.

So please stand still sometimes and look back at the people who means the most to you and let them know!

Talk to you soon

XoXo

sanii

broken heart

Helloo!

I think every one has there heart broken at least ones.
but have you ever really broken an heart and not just on purpose but just because you hat to do it.
well for those who are luky enough and never had to break a heart I can tell you it’s almost as hard and as painful as getting your heart broken.
when you see how a guy or a girl looks at you when you tell them you don’t love them the way they do.  That is heart breaking especially when you know the person really well and you do care for him/her.

That brings me to an other point: love.
what is it and why is it always or most of the time so hard to be in love, fall in love or love someone back. It is wonderful to feel like you can do everything you want. But the doubts and the pain and hurting that comes along with it makes it hard to really believe in it. I know I sound like a depressed girl right now but that isn’t true I just wonder why it is so hard to do it, love I mean.
I love to be in love don’t get me wrong, but it’s all to a curtained point. The point you doubt everything and think to much instate of acting to it. And that makes it pretty hard.
I love to think I understand guy’s pretty well. But sometimes I just really don’t get them, and I’m sure they think the same about us girls. Why does it have to be all so difficult.

Some day there will be a day that I find the good things about love all that matters but today is totally not that day

You will hear from me
XoXo
sanii

 

 

hello world!

Helloo

This is my First time ever that I write a blog but I thought that it was time to share my thought with the world
let I tell you first something about myself. I’m just an average girl of 18 almost 19 and I’m a fresh man at thim van der laan school for phisicaltherapy.
there is not much more to tell actually. Like I said this is my first time so I’m also new with wrighting.
I’m from the Netherlands but I will try and write as much as possible in English so every body can read this;)

I hope you will enjoy it
talk to you soon!

XoXo

sanne